Blog Nonsense

Hi Everyone,
Ok, this privatizing my blog is driving me crazy. First of all, I need to acknowledge all the nice responses from so many kind strangers wanting to still get access. I thought the only ones who read it it were my aunts and my cousin Judy and the biggest Sadie stalker out there, Miss Hannah Beth. Which brings up the whole reason I decided to privatize my blog. Stalker weirdness. I never thought of it, really I didn't, until this lady here...



...who I won't name because she clearly values her anonymity, asked me if I ever worried about posting pictures of my baby up on the old world wide web where everyone can see her. Hhhmmmmm.. No. I never did. And I never thought about writing about where I live along with the photos either. But after she asked me, well I sure started thinking about it and I freaked myself out. I mean there are some creepy people out there. So, this is why I decided to make it accessible to only those who I allowed. However, I had no idea all the problems this would cause. The biggest being that probably the only real Sadie stalker, the aforementioned older sister of mine Hannah Beth, hasn't figured out how to sign up for the blog (it's not really a password situation, sorry for that confusion) and returned from New York FREAKING OUT because she couldn't access it. She even called me at work all in a tizzy demanding I immediately give her access or else she would lose it...her being in serious Sadie withdrawal mode. So this is why I keep changing it from private to non-private and all that.

Anyway, I'm sort of losing my paranoia too, as the days wear on and I worry about other things, like keeping my job in this crazy economy so we can keep this house over our heads, and all the people I have worked with for years and years who have recently lost their job, and the fact that my baby has had a cold for almost a month and hacks every morning like person who smokes three packs a day and how I never see, and will never see, my husband during daylight hours because he works on the weekends and I work on the week days. Yeah, work. Back at it. Not the best timing to say the least. Being away from Sadie is hard, but not as hard as I thought it would be because I know she's having fun at Annie's. Every morning, when she's dropped off, she leans in to Annie, reaching for her and never looks back. I have to say, I have mixed feelings about this. Sure I don't want my kid throwing a small tantrum every morning, but then again, I'd like to think she missed me a little too. Anyway, I thought going back to work would be like riding a bike, but I feel like my mind is made of mush and people are talking to fast about things I don't understand. I've been away a long time and have gone through a lot during that time. Most days, over the past few months, I think I sang the Itsy Bitsy Spider more than I spoke a full sentence. I've only been back a week and a half. I shouldn't be so hard on myself.

So, happy halloween and have a lovely weekend.





Love,
Rosalie